Finally, this season was over at last weekend's game!! As I said before we couldn't go to the playoff for top 4 teams in the league due to an embarrassing result.
But now I just feel relaxed and at ease. I didn't feel like this in so long cuz I had always been tired in this season and feel always uneasy and frastrated with a lot of things..
In fact, I felt like I could cry when I couldn't play for top side for couple games. but of course no one helped me out of the punishing condition, so I could help but put up with it.
But I never dropped out of the suvival of playing. I just kept waiting for a opportunities and at the last game, I finally seized a opportuinity, actually.
At the last game, vs North star, I played for reserve game before I was called out by one of a coach in top side. and I got two assist of goal in there and I could play for top from second half.
When I was on the pitch, we were in a terrible situation, 1-4, 3 points behind. After that, we showed an amaizing performance to come close and back to even, we ended up adding 4 goals and took over the lead, 5-4, and.... actually we had been winning tll last 5 minutes....
At only 5 minutes to time up, we were equalized from coner, we ended up finishing in even score, 5 all.
Our first winning game was dissapeared at next to time up.
Then, after the game, a coach and a stuff called out only me and told me, ' what will you do next season? You intend to play here?, I answered, 'I'm thinking about it now' and they said, 'why? Play here!!'
!!??
I didn't know what to answer back and I didn't believe in his words cuz I might been a quality player at last game but I didn't think they gave me a offered with only one game.
Of course, I also complained to them why they didn't give me a chance earlier at that time, but he just gave me some bizarre excuses.
I got sick and tired of their attitudes and words, I turned down the offer. If the offer had been much better, I wouldn't have agreed with it. I wanna play better, improve my skill up to limit. To do that, I have to be a stronger team i think.
My big challenge will continue forever as long as I'm player. (unless retiring)
ういっす、「税」については次回書きますわぃ！！
えーー
えー
今シーズン、無事終了いたしました！！！！！！（パチパチ）
おかげ様で、怪我なく２チームに渡って過ごしたこの半年、精神的にしんどかった時期しかあんま記憶にないけど、終わりました。
成長したんかな？？笑
実際サッカーに関してはうまくなってるとは全然感じません、むしろこれぐらいやれて当たり前、もっといえば、まだまだ全然ダメ。。。
明日からオフシーズンに入るけど、日本にかえらんって決めたし、必死でトレーニングして確実に成長できる飛躍のシーズンに来年はしたいと終わった後すぐ気持ち切り替えましたね！
楽しむ暇なんてないんや、もっと追い込んで、強くなります！（ほんまに日本が恋しいけど笑）
そして今日の最終戦、またもやリザーブでの出場。前半２アシスト決めて前半はなんと５－０で折り返し、後半早々交代しました。
それで、トップの試合に呼ばれて、ベンチ入り。
後半１０分くらいかな、１－４の場面で中盤の底で起用され、そのあとポンポンと点が入ってなんと５－４で逆転・・・そのまま勝ちたかったけど、最後終了間際に返されて５－５で試合終了。
なんとも野球の試合みたいな乱打戦なったけど、ほんま勝ちたかった・・・。
その後選手控え室で待機してたら、監督に個人的に呼ばれて・・
「来年絶対うちでプレーしろ」
！！？？！？？
えーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーー！！？？ でした。正直。
今まで全然使ってくれへんかったのに、今日のプレーだけで気が変わったみたい。笑 けど、おれも納得いかんかったから、色々不満ゆったけど、なんか色々言い訳されて終わったね。笑
その後収拾つきそうになかったから一応やるとはいっておいたけど、「絶対やらねぇ！！！」って心ん中でおもてました。笑
けど仕事も紹介してくれるみたいやし、１試合で色んなことが変わって自分も驚いてます。
やっぱ外国人選手は結果次第やねんな、と。
ほんま来年死ぬ気でやります、自分の人生をいい方向に導けるように！
今年の個人成績は、コッチのブログに載せときます。
たいした成績ではないけど、まぁ見てみてください。
ではでは！！
But now I just feel relaxed and at ease. I didn't feel like this in so long cuz I had always been tired in this season and feel always uneasy and frastrated with a lot of things..
In fact, I felt like I could cry when I couldn't play for top side for couple games. but of course no one helped me out of the punishing condition, so I could help but put up with it.
But I never dropped out of the suvival of playing. I just kept waiting for a opportunities and at the last game, I finally seized a opportuinity, actually.
At the last game, vs North star, I played for reserve game before I was called out by one of a coach in top side. and I got two assist of goal in there and I could play for top from second half.
When I was on the pitch, we were in a terrible situation, 1-4, 3 points behind. After that, we showed an amaizing performance to come close and back to even, we ended up adding 4 goals and took over the lead, 5-4, and.... actually we had been winning tll last 5 minutes....
At only 5 minutes to time up, we were equalized from coner, we ended up finishing in even score, 5 all.
Our first winning game was dissapeared at next to time up.
Then, after the game, a coach and a stuff called out only me and told me, ' what will you do next season? You intend to play here?, I answered, 'I'm thinking about it now' and they said, 'why? Play here!!'
!!??
I didn't know what to answer back and I didn't believe in his words cuz I might been a quality player at last game but I didn't think they gave me a offered with only one game.
Of course, I also complained to them why they didn't give me a chance earlier at that time, but he just gave me some bizarre excuses.
I got sick and tired of their attitudes and words, I turned down the offer. If the offer had been much better, I wouldn't have agreed with it. I wanna play better, improve my skill up to limit. To do that, I have to be a stronger team i think.
My big challenge will continue forever as long as I'm player. (unless retiring)
ういっす、「税」については次回書きますわぃ！！
えーー
えー
今シーズン、無事終了いたしました！！！！！！（パチパチ）
おかげ様で、怪我なく２チームに渡って過ごしたこの半年、精神的にしんどかった時期しかあんま記憶にないけど、終わりました。
成長したんかな？？笑
実際サッカーに関してはうまくなってるとは全然感じません、むしろこれぐらいやれて当たり前、もっといえば、まだまだ全然ダメ。。。
明日からオフシーズンに入るけど、日本にかえらんって決めたし、必死でトレーニングして確実に成長できる飛躍のシーズンに来年はしたいと終わった後すぐ気持ち切り替えましたね！
楽しむ暇なんてないんや、もっと追い込んで、強くなります！（ほんまに日本が恋しいけど笑）
そして今日の最終戦、またもやリザーブでの出場。前半２アシスト決めて前半はなんと５－０で折り返し、後半早々交代しました。
それで、トップの試合に呼ばれて、ベンチ入り。
後半１０分くらいかな、１－４の場面で中盤の底で起用され、そのあとポンポンと点が入ってなんと５－４で逆転・・・そのまま勝ちたかったけど、最後終了間際に返されて５－５で試合終了。
なんとも野球の試合みたいな乱打戦なったけど、ほんま勝ちたかった・・・。
その後選手控え室で待機してたら、監督に個人的に呼ばれて・・
「来年絶対うちでプレーしろ」
！！？？！？？
えーーーーーーーーーーーーーーーー！！？？ でした。正直。
今まで全然使ってくれへんかったのに、今日のプレーだけで気が変わったみたい。笑 けど、おれも納得いかんかったから、色々不満ゆったけど、なんか色々言い訳されて終わったね。笑
その後収拾つきそうになかったから一応やるとはいっておいたけど、「絶対やらねぇ！！！」って心ん中でおもてました。笑
けど仕事も紹介してくれるみたいやし、１試合で色んなことが変わって自分も驚いてます。
やっぱ外国人選手は結果次第やねんな、と。
ほんま来年死ぬ気でやります、自分の人生をいい方向に導けるように！
今年の個人成績は、コッチのブログに載せときます。
たいした成績ではないけど、まぁ見てみてください。
ではでは！！