Hi, how are you, guys.
On last Christmas, it arguably makes people happy. However, I accidentally arrived at India for the first time in my entire life on that day. It has been for 5 months ever since except the 10 days that I had been back to Japan for a visa issue. I have actually been for last 5 months with such incredible experiences which I have never tasted before. Basically, it was overly a tough challenge for me to live with it, but I could say that it was a precious time which is less likely to happen as long as not living in India.
I maybe believe I wouldn't think positively of all of negative things that happened to me in the past, if I didn't jump out of Japan just 4 years ago. I have learnt and experienced a lot in the oversea life that most of the experiences weren't optimistic to me. That's how I grew up mentally. This is my only one I could proud of myself to everyone.
'Only the people who had been in the most problematic time have rights to be the happiest human beings after all'. Thee are one of my favorite words. I hope I wanna turn this words into reality through myself. I always write down on a note when I run into an impressive words somewhere. good words and phrases usually cheer me up and on too facing on a difficulty or hardship.
I have had both a negative thing and a positive thing in the last 5 months out here so far. The negative thing was that we could't make it through the final phase in the most important tournament through the season. If we had made it, we would have had another 12 intense games that would brush me up much as a player. I myself was just struggling every single day to get on well with my new team because I just popped into the team in the middle of the season straight after 10 days back to Japan. The coach and executive manager were probably expecting me to help the team in the final phase of the tournament. So we were totally messed up!! That big defeat at the early stage was obviously the last thing we had predicted before the tournament.
On the other hand, I've found out a positive thing as well. After leaving the tournament, I was beginning to get used to the new circumstances here which was perticularly the heat uniqur to India. After all, I'm pretty sure that I had showed the best performance in the team in each game. So I'm so sorry that we couldn't make it through the first round of it.
I think there are a lot of gaffes abd repentances in everyone's lifetime. However, only a few people try to get over it. If you don't even try it, what would be left behind you?? maybe nothing there. People who make successful stories perhaps learn something from mistakes that made in the past and make the most of it for the future not to repeat the same mistakes. I strongly believe I can be the one of them for sure. no, I have to be!!
インドのシーズンを終えて
インドに最初に来たのが去年のクリスマス。ビザの関係で日本に少し戻ったけど、もう約５か月。インドでのサッカー、そして生活と本当に今まで体験したことないことの連続。本当に精神的にきつい時期が長かったけど、ここに来ないとできない経験が積めたのは本当によかった。
例えどんなに辛いことがあっても、新しい経験が積めるなら、できるだけ若いうちに経験しておきたい。これは海外生活から学んだこと。色んな真新しい体験をすることで、少々のマイナスなことでもすぐに前向きに考えられる力が少しずつ養われてきたんだと思う。これは自分の数少ない強みであり、大事にしていること。
「一番辛い経験をしてきた人が、最後に一番幸せになれる人」
これは自分が好きな言葉の一つ。これを信じて実現させたいと日々思っている。他にも好きな言葉を見つけては、自分のノートに書き残している。良い言葉は、時に励ましになり、元気をくれる。忘れてしまうにはもったいないから。
けど、インド生活で一つだけ心残りなことがある。それはチームが大事な大会に予選の段階で敗退してしまったこと。もしここをクリアできていれば、さらに１２試合のガチンコ勝負ができた。自分は大会中に日本からチームに加入したので、自分をチームに溶け込ましている間に終わってしまった感じ。監督やマネージャーも、その決勝ラウンドに向けて自分を獲得してくれたのもあったし、唯一にして一番あってはならない結末。貴重な経験が積めるチャンスを逃してしまったのは、自分が成長できる時間を逃してしまったのと同じこと。これも大きな試練として前向きに捉えている。
けど、もちろんポジティブな要素もあった。大会後、暑さに慣れ、インドのサッカー、そしてチームに馴染み、毎日の練習で体もようやく動いてきて、チームの中心としてやれてきた実感がある。大会後の試合は、毎試合コンスタントに点も取れて、ＦＷとして自信もついてきた。
だからこそ、公式戦がなくなったのは本当に惜しいけど。笑
「すべての失敗や後悔は「成功」した時にはじめてその「過程」に変わる」
失敗を失敗のまま、後悔を後悔のままにしておくのはもったいない。それを先に生かして初めて、その経験がプラスに変わったといえるんじゃないかな。
そして「後悔する」を「反省する」という前向きな姿勢で向き合うことで、同じ過ちを犯さないことにつながると信じている。
とりあえず今は疲れきった自分にお疲れさんと言いたいです・・・。