148.Busy weekend...

Phew... this weekend was at an end?? Oh.. Why do we think that weekend seems to pass so fast.. Don't you think so?? Only me??

This weekend, I had my some personal stuff. My mother came to Tokyo to hear my future. Yes.. I have to make a decision about my career, now..

It's not a decision I'll quit my job(laugh). But in my career, The decision will be important thing. I should take expensive seminar or not, by private expenses.. Yes, not company funds..

I made a decision I go to seminar by myself. It's a big decision to me. I think I should do something about my job with sense of crisis. I must adjust our future in a few years. For that purpose, I think I must put in myself.. Everything will change and improve more and more.. Maybe you need not to be sensitive about that. Maybe It don't bother you so much. But in my case, that doesn't work because of my character.. I often lose my confidence(laugh), so I need the fact I can achieve something. Umm... I'm a weak person...

Yes, I always accept my weakness. I know myself. There are some persons like me, I believe. And... I'm a just ordinary woman. I know that well enough. I also know the fact there are some gender segregation as a unspeakable thing. Yes I know that, so, I should accept it, I have to deal with it by myself...

I might make a loss.. I don't know if it's good or bad. I don't know what will happen in my future.. you too, right?? I don't know if it's good thing, but I have to do my best now. I'm so scary to go a new step. But It's the time I have to move, I think.

Anyway, If I make a decision, I just do it without thinking so much. I might be able to see some effects or something in some years,,, yes not now...
Go for it! me!