生きていても、しょうがないな。
自殺すると、色々迷惑がかかるから、それはしない。
楽しみも減った。
退職したが、幸いなことに、これまでの貯えなどで何とか生活できる。
「即身成仏もいいかな」と思う。
水と塩だけで生きて、身体が枯れていく。
人生は、中途半端。
人の生に限りがあるから、生が終わったとき、中途半端と思う。
苦々しいが、受け入れよう。
食べたいものも、なくなった。
何を食べても、ただ同じ体験の繰り返しにすぎない。
端正で、心の規律ある生活が、いい。
この世は、苦く忌々しい。
空虚な、空想の中にのみ、楽しみがある。
平穏、無変化を望んでも、問題が、勝手に出現する。
それは、解決せばならない。
人生は、家康の言った通り「重き荷を負うて、遠き道を行くがごとし」である。
THIS WORLD IS BITTER AND HATEFUL
It is meaningless for you to live.
If you kill yourself, it brings many troubles to others. Therfore, you don’t do so.
Your pleasures have decreased.
You have retired, but it is happy that you can make your livelihood by your savings.
You think that “you should attain Buddhahood during life, that is, die by voluntarily starving”.
You eat only water and salt, as a result, your body become withered and diying.
Yur life is fundamentally halfway.
As it is not eternal, therefore when it ends, you think it is halfway.
This fact is bitter, but you accept it.
You have nothing to eat deliciously.
When you eat whatever you like, you only feel that you experience the same thing as you did before.
You want to live decently and in a diciplined way about your spiritual life.
This world is bitter and hateful.
You are delightful only when you live in vacant phantasies.
You hope that your situation is calm and unchanged, but problems appear uncontrollably.
You have to solve them.
You life is, as Shogun Ieyasu said, in such a way as “you go forward on the long road painfully carrying heavy burdens on your shoulders.”
自殺すると、色々迷惑がかかるから、それはしない。
楽しみも減った。
退職したが、幸いなことに、これまでの貯えなどで何とか生活できる。
「即身成仏もいいかな」と思う。
水と塩だけで生きて、身体が枯れていく。
人生は、中途半端。
人の生に限りがあるから、生が終わったとき、中途半端と思う。
苦々しいが、受け入れよう。
食べたいものも、なくなった。
何を食べても、ただ同じ体験の繰り返しにすぎない。
端正で、心の規律ある生活が、いい。
この世は、苦く忌々しい。
空虚な、空想の中にのみ、楽しみがある。
平穏、無変化を望んでも、問題が、勝手に出現する。
それは、解決せばならない。
人生は、家康の言った通り「重き荷を負うて、遠き道を行くがごとし」である。
THIS WORLD IS BITTER AND HATEFUL
It is meaningless for you to live.
If you kill yourself, it brings many troubles to others. Therfore, you don’t do so.
Your pleasures have decreased.
You have retired, but it is happy that you can make your livelihood by your savings.
You think that “you should attain Buddhahood during life, that is, die by voluntarily starving”.
You eat only water and salt, as a result, your body become withered and diying.
Yur life is fundamentally halfway.
As it is not eternal, therefore when it ends, you think it is halfway.
This fact is bitter, but you accept it.
You have nothing to eat deliciously.
When you eat whatever you like, you only feel that you experience the same thing as you did before.
You want to live decently and in a diciplined way about your spiritual life.
This world is bitter and hateful.
You are delightful only when you live in vacant phantasies.
You hope that your situation is calm and unchanged, but problems appear uncontrollably.
You have to solve them.
You life is, as Shogun Ieyasu said, in such a way as “you go forward on the long road painfully carrying heavy burdens on your shoulders.”
