When I was young, I was loving only myself
(若かった頃、オレは自分だけを愛していた)
Narcissism was my all
(自己愛がオレの全てだったよ)
I didn't also think parents were parents
(親を親とも思わなかったし)
and didn't also think friends were friends
(友を友だとも思わなかった)
Even if I was loved, there was no ability to sense
(もし愛されてたって、それを感じ取る能力がなかった)
And I thought that people who don't love me were wrong
(そして、オレを愛さない人たちが間違ってるんだと思ってた)
so hated all the worlds
(だから世の中の全てを憎んだのさ)
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When I grew up, I loved one calm woman
(大人になって、1人の穏やかな女性を愛した)
Her love was all of me
(彼女の愛がオレの全てだったよ)
I learnt to love someone seriously
(愛することも学んだし)
and learnt I was loved by someone seriously
(愛されることも学んだんだ)
But I did not want to learn for me not to be loved
(でも、愛されなくなることは学びたくなかった)
I cannot forget the word that she said to me at the end still
(彼女が最後にオレに言った言葉を、今でも忘れることが出来ない)
And I looked for another
(そして別の人を探したんだ)
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For work or love, I wanted to be needed by somebody
(仕事か恋愛で誰かに必要とされたかったのさ)
and continued wandering for 30 years
(そして30年間も彷徨い続けたんだ)
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When I completely forgot to expect it in something,
(何かに期待することなんて とっくに忘れた頃)
at last chances came
(チャンスがやって来た)
It was second and last love in my life
(人生で二番目、そして最後の恋)
It didn't work, although I valued it and tried hard for her
(大切にして、努力したけど、うまく行かなかった)
When the big chance had rotated at work, it didn't move
(仕事で大きなチャンスが巡って来た時は)
so that a brain and the heart might consider to the last
(最後まで、脳も心も、思うように動かなかった)
so hated all of me
(だから自分の全てを憎んだのさ)
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For work or love, I wanted to be needed by somebody
(仕事か恋愛で誰かに必要とされたかったんだ)
But everything was too late to get success again
(でも全ては遅すぎた、成功させるには遅すぎたんだ)
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I cannot forget the word that she said to me at the end still
(彼女が最後にオレに言った言葉を、今でも忘れることが出来ない)
so hated all of me
(だから自分の全てを憎んだのさ)
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(若かった頃、オレは自分だけを愛していた)
Narcissism was my all
(自己愛がオレの全てだったよ)
I didn't also think parents were parents
(親を親とも思わなかったし)
and didn't also think friends were friends
(友を友だとも思わなかった)
Even if I was loved, there was no ability to sense
(もし愛されてたって、それを感じ取る能力がなかった)
And I thought that people who don't love me were wrong
(そして、オレを愛さない人たちが間違ってるんだと思ってた)
so hated all the worlds
(だから世の中の全てを憎んだのさ)
*
When I grew up, I loved one calm woman
(大人になって、1人の穏やかな女性を愛した)
Her love was all of me
(彼女の愛がオレの全てだったよ)
I learnt to love someone seriously
(愛することも学んだし)
and learnt I was loved by someone seriously
(愛されることも学んだんだ)
But I did not want to learn for me not to be loved
(でも、愛されなくなることは学びたくなかった)
I cannot forget the word that she said to me at the end still
(彼女が最後にオレに言った言葉を、今でも忘れることが出来ない)
And I looked for another
(そして別の人を探したんだ)
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For work or love, I wanted to be needed by somebody
(仕事か恋愛で誰かに必要とされたかったのさ)
and continued wandering for 30 years
(そして30年間も彷徨い続けたんだ)
*
When I completely forgot to expect it in something,
(何かに期待することなんて とっくに忘れた頃)
at last chances came
(チャンスがやって来た)
It was second and last love in my life
(人生で二番目、そして最後の恋)
It didn't work, although I valued it and tried hard for her
(大切にして、努力したけど、うまく行かなかった)
When the big chance had rotated at work, it didn't move
(仕事で大きなチャンスが巡って来た時は)
so that a brain and the heart might consider to the last
(最後まで、脳も心も、思うように動かなかった)
so hated all of me
(だから自分の全てを憎んだのさ)
*
For work or love, I wanted to be needed by somebody
(仕事か恋愛で誰かに必要とされたかったんだ)
But everything was too late to get success again
(でも全ては遅すぎた、成功させるには遅すぎたんだ)
*
I cannot forget the word that she said to me at the end still
(彼女が最後にオレに言った言葉を、今でも忘れることが出来ない)
so hated all of me
(だから自分の全てを憎んだのさ)
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