Patient of Spirit
Actually, I didn't have spent my life in vain, and I don’t feel regret now such as I cannot do what I have to do. Somehow, I have a feeling unable to stand it, considering, "Is it good for me to repeat living and doing the same things every day?" I'm not dissatisfied with repeating everyday, and I don't feel tired of spending my life. However, I feel uneasy that something is distorted and I can't stay still about it. Why do I feel impatient or distracted? I may feel that my thoughts and reality are different at odds with each other. I don’t think to get away from reality, but I think it's something that makes me feel like I'm diverging from reality.
Nowadays, we are surrounded by useful tools that exceed our needs of living, but do they make our lives rich and fulfilling? In our daily life, personal information is protected, and we believe that security is ensured by surveillance cameras. But can we be reassured that we are rich in a really safe situation? I have no choice but to feel something different about such a reality. What is reality for me? The reality inside is from my own perspective. Generally, the human brain perceives and corrects the surrounding reality to suit its own convenience so that it can easily adapt to daily life. It's a distorted thing that I created from my own beliefs, and it's a reality that my personality has built inside. Being convinced of the distorted reality I created, I feel impatient as if I were being driven. Feelings of impatience and deviation are within me, so even if they arise from some shortage or dissatisfaction, they are all my mental situation. That is why, in my own thoughts and conflicts in reality, I create a situation where I have to mentally resist it.
On the other hand, there is also a reality that we unknowingly exclude it because we do not want to look directly at it. We are unaware that we feel somehow impatient. Modern people are usually exposed to competition and are convinced that they have to do it. We are forced, both at home and at work, being confused by the words average and standard, we feel like we're doing bad things outside that range. We bind ourselves with that feeling that there are many dangers around us. We are forced to live worrying about things that are not necessary for our relationships, believing that it is difficult for us to live with peace of mind. We believe that it's good to get it done quickly and well, although there is no time limit. And if we have time to spare, we tend to feel guilty about doing nothing. For such things, I am creating my own reality within myself. It's a closed world that I imagine, a daydream that I created for myself. In my awareness, that image naturally dissociates from the surroundings. Is it okay to keep myself there?
Consideration
Our perception of reality is created by taking in information from the sensory organs. Perceptual information from the desires necessary for life is the basis, and individual differences are added. It is influenced by the accumulation of joys, uneasy, fatigue, a fear and uplifting emotional feelings in life. The reality is made up of each recognition of the surrounding environment and substances. There is a point of view as a subject. It's something you're creating inside yourself, a world that's different from the actual real objects and interrelationships.
Your reality is an image of the current situation centered on yourself, which is the subject, inside the brain. Your thoughts are imprinted on the impression you actually perceived. The reality is created around what you want to see and hear so that you can feel at ease based on the feelings you want to think about yourself. Instead of recognizing the things as they are, you take in things that have a strong influence on you from a mixture of things.
By accumulating knowledge and experience, new actions and various emotions will occur, and you will further select from them. You can also expect your own ideals and feelings for the future. It is not only something in the actual time and space, but also the illusions and expectations within you. When a feeling of strangeness arises in the reality with such images, You sometimes try to shut yourself up and see what happens. If there is something you can rely on at that time, you may act depending on it. Sometimes you can think of some responses and confuse your situation. But if there is a difference between what you have created and the reality around you, it makes sense to introspect what you have noticed in that new reality. It would be unreasonable to judge that one's subjectivity is correct as a matter of course here.
When you feel something is wrong with what you envision in reality, you feel resistance to it. At that time, you can positively grasp the feeling of resisting the reality that was completed within you. Awareness of reality is painted with a combination of things that are convenient for you. The causal relationship that should have been convinced actively works and becomes a conflict and encourages introspection. Conflict is that there is spiritual resistance. By dealing with this with gentle patience, you will move beyond the conflicts associated with your reality to reconstruct a new reality. It should be a good opportunity to discover what you are trying to think and see, rather than just creating an impression with your closed stereotypes.
In the real world, one's consciousness and the surrounding substances always interfere with each other, creating a feeling of tension. Our mind has become accustomed to dealing with this tension without being aware of it. However, when he realizes the spirit of resistance, his consciousness leaves the reality of being trapped in the present and goes beyond time and space to introspection. There is an active work born from the tension caused by conflict. This tension, beyond the time and space, brings a sense of two-way, not only with one-way reception but also with one's own consciousness. It is the moment of freedom from time and space in the spirit. It is a detonator that creates a feeling of deviation, encourages introspection, and activates consciousness. Mental energy is activated by coping with conflicts with gentle patience. Recognize yourself from the tension between what is around you and yourself. Therefore, the spirit that is built inside you is in a dimension that does not directly interfere with matter. This trial and error may be approaching the perception of future intelligence.
Summary
There are a lot of useful tools around us, but we don't think we are mentally satisfied. We believe that our personal information and the environment are protected, but we are still in an era where we are forced to live in some anxiety and restrictions. I have no choice but to be convinced of the current situation. There is something that does not let me see the actual relationship, and it makes me feel as if I was being manipulated by something.
For individuals who prioritize sustaining life, it is not necessary to know all the truth. However, instead of being convinced there, the feeling of resistance is wriggling to the bottom of my heart. The fact that I can't be honestly convinced causes me to feel impatient and distracted, which stimulates my spirit. Even if there is a path that is basically decided as life, I have mental conflict because I have created my inner world as my own consciousness.
Even if I see the calm and lukewarm real world in front of me, I have a feeling to resist. It is not just a feeling of resistance, but a gentle patience that encourages introspection of the entanglement of conflict. I think it's up to me how to create the reality within me.
When I feel reluctant to repeat vague everyday life without a clear goal, there is a gap between my inner spirit and my perception of reality. I can't stand living monotonously and my mind becomes imbalanced, which leads to impatience. The feelings of deviation and impatience that occur in me are not the escape from reality, but the generation of mental energy in the dissociation between myself and reality. I have a feeling of reviewing the information that I have been sticking to, finding differences, and expanding into my spiritual desires.
Looking back at the conflicts that occurred within me, I felt that my mental energy generated and effectively activated. At that time, I went beyond spending on the continuation of life, as if life energy is sublimating into spiritual energy. Even though it seems to be a monotonous life, in fact, I am preparing to create a high degree of reality within myself. Even though I'm basically continuing to live, I'm looking for something unique and spiritual in my actions.
Let's consider about the resistance that arises in the mind from the aspect of human evolution. Evolution in the human mind is probably trained in complex and diverse realities. If the individual sense of reality is crushed, it is synonymous with the ruin of individuality. If so, the human race will become a species that disappears in the evolution of life.
The mental energy that resists the perception of reality will be activated when we think there should be something to do, not just to complete life. The spirit trained by such trial and error expands one's self-consciousness beyond the stereotypes that we have been trapped. It is an extension to the desire for intellect that should be in the future, which is subtly manifested in the perception of reality.
Nowadays, I think we are at the stage where we build and accumulate our personal reality within ourselves. We deepen our experiences by taking actions in the reality we imagine ourselves. We can say "That's okay." to stop worrying about something. In the future, there will be some expansion of brain function, and it can be expected that the threshold of awareness will increase.
Written by Ichiro, 6/26/2022,
