When I was little,
I've been suffered discrimination.
At starting point,
I couldn't be notice the situation.
Only difference between I and others
was that I was new commer.
I was not a native there,
I was a stranger.
I've learned about human,
that wasn't believable creature.
Every time I tasted pain,
I felt their poor and miserable nature.
Lots of sadness
came into my heart.
My damage was so severe,
that I couldn't restart.
There was nothing
to be helpful, around.
This was the true nature
of human being, I've found.
People always hate others,
who are different from them.
People never accept others,
that did not benefit them.
...Enough !!
I can't continue
being suffered terribly from them any more.
I can't continue
being nervous for their sake never more.
I thought
I could depend nothing on them at all.
I decided
standing on my own foot and withdrew them all.
No expect to others,
no discourages from them.
No reliance on others,
no betrayal by them.
I've learned
keeping safe distance from others all time.
And I've learned
to avoid troubles by those evils at anytime.
I could start
living peacefully in this way.
I thought
I would be going on this way.
And once I've been freed
from evil curse of people barely,
I've found the fact
they also hurt each other poorly.
I was disgusted but never thought,
it's my turn to negrect them.
Because, doing this way,
means I was the same with them.
I threw myself
into loneliness with silence.
Neither as a victim nor as an assaulter,
concern with them was out of my patience.
But after long time passed...
I could find a person,
who can kindly accept me.
We could understand each other
and this could change me.
Whether it was good or bad,
everything was acceptable.
Finally I knew warm heart of human
that let me think people a bit approvable.
Fengleishanren.
Yijing Apprentice 3. Trigram family.
Qian(乾) is father, bottom-middle-upper, three Yang lines,
Zhen(震) is eldest brother, two Yins on a bottom Yang line,
Xun(巽) is eldest sister, two Yangs on a bottom Yin line,
Kun(坤) is mother, bottom-middle-upper, three Yin lines,
Kan(坎) is middle brother, a middle Yang between two Yin lines.
Gen(艮) is youngest brother, two Yins under a top Yang line.
Dui(兌) is youngest sister, two Yangs under a top Yin line.
Li(離) is middle sister, a middle Yin between two Yang lines.
Yin and Yang usually behave contrasting.
But they also work, together in harmony.
Trigrams have this principle, inside of them.
You should treat them carefully when Hexagram casting.
Two Trigrams make a Hexagram like weaving symphony.
And remember, Hexagrams have Trigrams, inside of them.
Fengleishanren.
11/Jan/2014
Two enemies
-- reading Goethes Faust II
Fear causes suspicion.
It makes us not to believe in others.
Hope causes omission.
It makes us not to consider for others.
Sometimes both become the enemies of life.
They lead life to selfishness and loneliness.
Fengleishanren.
10/Feb/2014
Yijing Apprentice 2. New Spiritual Friends
"You may think Trigrams as a big family", master said,
"Think this way, and you may feel them alongside."
"But they have no blood relationship, master", I replied.
"Human have no-blood-connected family as well", master said.
"Well, lets me introduce them", master smiled,
Showing me eight spirits of Trigram.
It was the first time I saw spirits of Trigram.
They were small, and their mood were really mild.
"Hello, there", I talked to them.
"Hi, young girl", they replied cheerfully.
"I'm Stella, a student of Luna" , I said.
"Are you my teachers, too?", I asked to them.
"No, but nice to be friends.", they answered delightfully.
"Stella, you'll enjoy with new friends.", master said.
Fengleishanren.
11/Jan/2014
Painful air is
staring me.
Thoughtful light is
stroking me.
Atmosphere that
new day wears
Draws my courage
to upstairs.
Silent time is
passing away.
Now it's time to
next role play.
Human world is
troublesome.
Many things are
dull and glum.
Keep your heart in
icy state
To find new way
for good fate.
Fengleishanren.
12/Jan/2014
Coldness spreading over me
This is winter's day
Wind breaks severely all of me
This is hard to say
Frozen Darkness comes for me
This is peace to stay
Life's so hard but yet so free
This is love, God's way
Fengleishanren.
11/Jan/2014.
Yijing Apprentice 1. Stella and Luna.
I am a girl named Stella, an apprentice of Yijing.
My master is Luna, a beautiful woman skilled and kind.
At beginning, she said to me, "keep images in your mind."
"What images?" , asked I and she answered, "everything."
"Yijing divination is symbol-interpretation.
Good fortuneteller can draw rich images from symbols.
And it's also important to use images to cast symbols.
From now, you must grow your capacity of imagination."
She continued, "Symbol in Yijing is called eight Trigrams.
Each Trigram consists of three lines of Yin or Yang.
Yin broken, Yang straight, opposite nature is endowed with them.
Things in universe are symbolized by eight Trigrams.
It's good for you to think of them in young.
Please make you be familiar with each of them."
ソフト業界で仕事をしていると、
どんなプロジェクトでもいつかは卒業する時が来ます。
うれしくもあり、寂しくもあり。
もっとも、別な現場で馴染みの顔と再会することもありますが。
以下は最後の挨拶からの抜粋です。
This is the last day for me to work here.
22 months have passed since I had joined your team.
Everything was fresh and curious for me to hear.
And I’ve been continuing my jobs in the team.
People I met were kind and charming.
Things I saw were so interesting.
And I feel it was great pleasure to ge them into my experience.
- Ars longa, vita brevis -
Skill is long, Life is short.
Way (of our tech.) is long, Term (of our contract) is short.
Time has come to say farewell.
I say Thanks to you as well.
It was nice for me to stay
Here and work and learn each day.
The Mindtraveller 4
Fengleishanren
4 Episode-1 Maria 2
Deep Unconscious is borderless world,
Full of image and symbolical,
None of emotion and logical,
By one's sense, they're rebuilt as the world.
Maria knows, things are meaningless in unconscious,
All goods and evils are decided by human,
And it's sense of value, influenced thought of human,
She keeps her mentality, always be auspicious.
Deeper and deeper, in unconscious diving,
Something appeared drifting in the stream,
Seemed like islets, like rootless wanderer.
Named "Mind Gateway" , known as base of surviving,
It was a portal to the individual's dream,
Maria landed onto one, starting task as renderer.
The Mindtraveller 3
Fengleishanren
3 Episode-1 Maria 1
Takasugi Maria was a famous mindtraveller,
Lived in Neo Tokio, solved many incidents,
Never failed missions, no matter accidents,
She was called, the greatest mindtraveller.
One day, explosion occurred in the city,
Soon after it, she received an email,
Her client wants to meet to talk in detail,
At this time, she could not see nitty-gritty.
She took the sheet , and turned on the switch,
Of Medusa, psychic enhancement system,
To connect to deep unconscious stream.
Only mindtravellers were allowed to twitch
A veil of unconscious aside. And system
Kept their safety while they were in the stream.