mature or immature

mature or immature
I'm not sure

but I have this mask on my face

it's not that I'm hiding real me inside behind it
but it may be true that I don't have enough courage to expose myself out

since I was only a child
this kind of personality I have have caused many problems
and it still does

I wanted to be wanted
I needed to be needed
and I loved to be loved

well I'm not just talking about the past that is gone
I should confess that...

I want to be wanted
I need to be needed
and I love to be loved

but tell me somebody
who could teach me how to express those feelings?
who could blow away these fears I have in my mind?

素直に見えて素直じゃない自分を託せない
mature or immature
I'm not sure

but I know I have to change myself
although it takes long time and I have this long way to go