社交性

こちらの曲。　 

charlotte cardin の作詞作曲。カナダ人のミュージシャン。ラジオで聞いて思わず聞き入ってしまいました。そして「わかるー」とニヤニヤしてしまった曲。

何でも彼女はパーティーが嫌い。パーティーへ行くと必ずトイレで自分を整える(落ち着かせるとか、気持ちの切り替えとか)作業をしなければならず、その時に浮かんだ曲だとか。歌詞はこちら。

Hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm

Always been loud in a quiet way

I always feel alone in a crowded place

I always wanna stay, wanna go

Wanna stay, wanna go, I don't know

I don't know

I get sad on my birthday

I wanna talk back in the worst way

I always wanna stay, wanna go

Wanna stay, wanna go

I don't know what to say

I wanna throw it all away

I feel like a zombie, I'll die at the party

Yeah, you'll find my body fully covered in confetti

I tried calling somebody to tell them, "Come, get me"

But you'll find my body fully covered in confetti

Singin' la-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

La-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

La-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

La-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

Find me in the club looking golden

I know everyone, I got no friends

I always wanna stay, wanna go

Wanna stay, wanna go, I don't know

I don't know

And I never know what to say

'Til I'm already walkin' away

Wanna punch you in the face

But I won't, but I might, but I won't

And I don't wanna play

I wanna throw it all away

I feel like a zombie, I'll die at the party

Yeah, you'll find my body fully covered in confetti

I tried calling somebody to tell them, "Come, get me"

But you'll find my body fully covered in confetti

Singin' la-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

La-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

La-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

La-da-da-da-da (hmm-hmm, hmm-hmm)

Look at the people, they're crazy

Look at the people, they're crazy

Look at the people, they're crazy

Look at the pupils dilatin'

Look at the people, they're crazy (crazy)

I feel like a zombie, I'll die at the party

Yeah, you'll find my body fully covered in confetti

I tried calling somebody to tell them, "Come, get me" (come get me)

But you'll find my body fully covered in confetti

Singin' la-da-da-da-da

Source: LyricFind

北米のパーティー文化。私も嫌いです。しかしこの国で生きていくためには社交性の一部として必須。新しい出会いがあれば楽しいものになるのだけれど、くだらない、どうでも良い話をするのが通常。知的刺激を受けないから、つまらなさが増します。作り笑顔にも限界が出ると、私もトイレで大きなため息。気持ちを切り替えてフリを続けます。だからこの曲が気に入った。

コロナの時は良かった〜。パーティーがなくなったから。しかしそれも終わり、通常に戻りつつあります。

あ！少ない人数でじっくり話をするのは好きです。笑いが普通に出てきて退屈しない。大人数でワイワイガヤガヤがダメなだけ。

みなさんはパーティー好きですか？