feel sorry

I dont know why I feel sorry when I have to say "no" even if I'm not wrong.

Today I was asked to work tomorrow though my schedule was supposed off. I knew everyone at my working place is busy right now(cos the chief manager will transfer to another place soon), but I refused in rather bad attitude. I had no promised appointment tomorrow, but i wanted to study, so I said no.
Then I felt a negative vibe from my boss. Both of us got in a bad mood.

I think this happened because I kinda avoided saying "no" directly and used a negative, sloppy words instead. If I could just say "I'm sorry, but I can't", that was fine, i think. But I felt sorry to say only "no"(cos I have no "proper" excuse to get a day-off), I ended up causing bad result.

ahhh i dont know what im writing again.
..Forgive me, this is just a TSUBUYAKI.


By the way, Occhan gave me some fruits again. thank, thank, thank.

procrastination

I wonder how many times i used this title.

After spending "much work(i mean work, not paperworks) no study" days, now it seems like i have to pay for it.
I'm going to have a consultation(it's SOTSURON ZEMI) with professor tomorrow.


What have i done in this summer?

I dare not to answer this question. Cos my summer hasn't ended yet. My summer-work will be done from now!

It's good to call it summer now because it's still so hot. isn't it supposed to be autumn??

Anyways, i will do it. i can do it, i can do it.

cookies

Today our society members baked cookies for the cafe, which we are opening on coming Tuesday @ KISC.

Making cookies all day made me tired.

That's why I couldn't read the email from my friend properly and misunderstood the appointed day.

When I went to the appointed place, there was nobody.
soooooo stupid
But it was good cos i could meet my friend (unexpectedly for her).

haha....

tokyo2

im going to tokyo again.
actually im not happy to go there this time.

because

1. im in the "my job-hunting is already finished" mood

2. i need to take exams from morning till evening on sunday. it'll start early in the morning...

3.i must pay for transportation expenses →　i chose to take a bus to go there　→　its gonna be very uncomfortable and tiring trip


So i decided to make this trip good one.
i will go sightseeing, meet my friends as many as i can. so please come see me if possible. onegaishimasu....

cancelled

Though I was staying home to have maintenance of cable TV this noon, the cable company didnt show up. I need to be at home next monday as well. booooooo



I am waiting for the ring which never rings. im left hanging in the air. Nowadays I sometimes feel insecure.

Oh, sounds too sentimental. maybe i can write a song.