takes time

I wonder how many hours i should spend on writing self-praise sheets of paper, aka Entree Sheet.
Basically I dont like showing myself off (or just let myself out to people easily), so this is really a backbreaking job to do. But unless i write this paper, i won't even get a chance to have job interview. uuu so hard. It's like an another essay hell.

These days i can't help but think how great Japanese bussiness men or women are, who went through the regular job-hunting procedure after the collapse of the "bubble ecomomy". I respect them so much.
People say now it became easier for students to get a job opportunity, but in reality i dont feel it any.

aaaaa I wanna go back to hometown and relax!! but im too stupid to make a tight schedule. I will go to lots of lots of seminars this week and next week....I wonder if i can survive or not.

NHK

Though I cannot watch TV, I paied TV charge for NHK today.
When the money collector came to my room, i totally forgot that my TV has bad reception and I cannot watch NHK at all. So i paied...stupid. I even asked the collecter "Isn't your job hard?". I guess im having compassion on labours in Japanese severe society now.
But this event finally raise me up to call the engineer to have a look at the TV connection. From day after tomorrow(hopefully) my life with TV will start.

By the way, I wonder why I could stand the life without TV this long although i was a TV-lover before. I'm looking forward to watching NEWS.

...no, i lied. I wanna watch KAREINARU ICHIZOKU...

unstable

I wonder why im so emotionally unstable.

im down. In this mood, i cant help doing a backward-looking way of thinking....basically toward job hunting atm.
I know why, there were 2 events that made me down today, but id rather not write here.

ummm i hate this..
probably i should go to bed early. I have an exam tomorrow...

flat tire

I got a flat tire.
After working at NEKONEYA and eating TENBURI(yellowtail. natural one, which was soooo nice), I had this unfortunate event.
Ive gotta go to have it repaired tomorrow. Where is the bicycle shop around here, by the way...?

the Emperor's birthday

I havent updated here for ages! I'll tell you what i have been doing these days..Theres no meaning in the title by the way.

there were some ups and downs.

downs first.

1. On Sanday, i got a cancel call of Japanese class again. maybe it was the 3rd time this month. i only went to the class once in December!
(Oh, i havent written about this before..im teaching japanese to Peruvian.) Wonder if my way of teaching is bad or i am looked down on(cos im younger) or just he is lazy. from the begining i kinda expected this situation, but in fact it is a bit harder. I cant even show if i get angry or not. Before i say something, all he can say is GOMENNASAI^(Im sorry). umm. Should I study Spanish?

2. Im in a job hunting moratorium. I started to have some questions about crazy Japanese job hunting system. Why do we have to do it now? still have about 1 and half a year till actually start to work! if i keep going to seminars like more than twice a week, i will get exhausted before the job interview season(which starts in April). so i decided to go less for now.
moreover, I cant understand why students who have kept sleeping all the time in lectures become totally different persons. (but this is somewhat true of me as well, i think i play different "me" outside.) though i have lot of questions inside, im doing it anyway....


3. I cant get up early.(as usual) I hate cold morning!!


Ok, ups

1. I received a small prize from 李箱 essay contest. Though it was a forced work(it was a teacher's favour for students) and the book was so difficult, worth trying :)

2. A friend from the same ゼミ came back from study abroad in the US. Good to have a same year friend who's gonna do five-year together, and of course i was happy to know she's fine and wasnt changed(im sure shes grown up inside though).

3.A quick RUNIMARIE(30min) with Akk*.

RUMINARIE

4. Friends from the same faculty got together and went to dinner(cheese fondue :q). We ate a lot. Talked a lot. It was really fun!

5. A friend and i talked about some serious problems in Japanese society(sounds like im really a serious Uni student who's studying Japanese social studies!) and about the life generally. It may sound KIMOI, but it was really good to talk so many stuff with her. because of this, i missed the last class of this year, but it was sort of my will, so its ok.


at last, im in winter holiday! yeyeyey
wanna go back home ,,but i cant. Until my part time job ends.


Long diary. wonder if anybody reads this.

A view from KISC