mixed

Because of the recession, recently Japanese society carries on about dismissal of dispatched worker(temporary worker; HAKEN) in manufactuaring companies...and my company is no exception.

Unfortunately, one of my group memebers will be laid off at the end of this month. Since I really like her, I couldnt help but cry when i heard it. Only consolation is that she has new full-time job at the different place, not as a temporary worker. On the day when I heard it, I was really shocked and sad all day.
But today it was announced that I'm gonna be in charge of America instead of her from next month. Cos I've felt I'm not important in the group, this was kind of happy news for me. I've been just doing supportive job since I was assigned to this section (support for the sales in Germany and India). So I wanted to be "a person in charge" in particular area.

Now I have mixed feelings.

I can't simply be happy when I think of her,,,like..she does her job far better than me. Why her???
But I already know that once I start to think this sort of stuff, I just feel empty and sad....There's nothing I can do to change this situation.

So maybe all I have to do is try hard. Thank her for being a nice colleague as well as a respectable SENPAI.

mmm demo yappri moyamoya. ;(
I hate bad economy!

condition

It's too late to say...but, Happy New Year!

I caught a cold at the very beginning of the year. And I still haven't got in good condition. I went through hell of running nose and sneezing after coming back from Kurashiki, then now...I still don't feel good. I don't have appetite, which is very unusual for me. Even when I have fever, I usually cannot skip meals! But now, although I have no fever, I dont feel like eating.
And this is soooo hard.
I realised that eating was one of my few comforts in my life. Now that I lose one important pleasure....feel bad not only physically but also mentally!

Wanna get out of this bad cycle as soon as possible ;(

rash

I got a rash again.
I think I should refrain from drinking for a while...

Maybe this is the punishment for me who doesn't do anything during working hours. demo yarukotoga naindesu....

By the waaaaay, just one day and I will be on summer holiday! yay yay yay
So excited to get out of this city.... no no
I mean, Summer Sonic is waiting. My family is also (hopefully) waiting.


Can't wait tomorrowwww

wisdom tooth

I had my wisdom tooth out.
it isnt aching so much. But it mentally hurts.
goodbye my tooth....

reality

I'm back in Japan now.
My dreamy 2 week trip has ended. Now I'm facing with lots of work to do towards my new life. I have to get ready to move.
Even unpacking my suitscase is a bother for me, much more packing all my stuff in this room!!



2 week sounds long, but it was way too short.
Especially in Brisbane, there were lot more things I wanted to do.
But it was quite nice to visit there again, I could enjoy the atomosphere there. City Cat, Southbank, Great Court......even bush turkey looked lovable.
Of course, catching up with some awesome people was nice, too.
Finding some differences in IH was a bit sad for me. There were few ppl i know...
But things change. Ive wanted to go back to IH all the time, but its not the place, there should be people I know there!! I thought I understood this, but actually I didn't. Now I have many people i wanna see in all different places, which should be good.

I think I wrote too much about Brisbane here...A lot more happened in Bangkok and Melbourne. More adventurous and maybe exciting.
With all these, I still love Brisbane the best. aa, yappari modoritaina.