Thai Festival

I was supposed to be reborn, but I AM still what I was. I mean I didn't practice the resolusion today.

Argh, what I did today? What did I talk in English today...?
To think about these things, I got remorse. It looks like a dream that I was so high yesterday. I have big emotional fluctuation..

I went to library to search for some books for essay. But the books I wanted to borrow were already borrowed by someone..
It was too late to start to collect the materials.

Today's dinner was a bit different from usual. I think its because of a meeting(party?) held in dining hall.
We ate dinner(BBQ Burger) outside(lawn). We had a "Kick Back Night"(a program of entertainment) there. The Soiree video was played on the screen, so I watched for a while. And there were some performances.
I enjoyed watching and listening those. But...actually, I wanted to study tonight. Thanks to this, I could not study.(excuse?) Because noise at lawn is sooo easy to hear from my room. I am lucky to live this location..
After that, I went to Thai Festival held near the Uni lake. It has exotic mood, for...not only because of Thai food they sold, but also the Thai that MC spoke.It's rare to hear someone speak thai!
I didn't buy anything there. I wanted to try something, but they were not tempting...
**ko-chan was singing in the stage(But I don't know why Japanese sang in Thai Festival), so we watched. Her song was very nice!!
And I liked her song choice. I hum a bit and wanted to go karaoke...!!!

Of course, I sang in my room again. haha

Released

I feel a sence of freedom now. Because......

I finished the presentation!!!

Though it was only 8 minites, though I could choose the topic i like, it has been troubling me for a long time. I read the script almost all the time, but I think I could tell what I wanted to say to everyone. I know ppl here always have good words for everyone(especially those who are not English native speaker), I was verrry happy to get a compliment from tutor and class. I was afraid of being asked questions, but question was easy to answer.
After the tuto, I felt I became another person. (Am i too simple??)
By force of circumstance, I made a resolution from now on. If i keep this resolution, my life will be better than now!
Anyway, this hardship(←overstatement) motiveted me a lot!!! I wish this mood will last forever...

I had no class in the afternoon, so went to the city. It was soooo hot today. Like the middle of summer!! the maximum temparature of today was 32℃! it should be the beginning of summer now...why..

I went to the City Hall. there is a clock tower and museum(free). So i poped in and had a look. Clock tower was already closed and the museum was a bit small, but i think i found a good place. Maybe i will visit there again to get in the clock tower.
I walked around the city again and got exhausted. I got a kind of heatstroke...? I feel burned...

The bus was coming just in time when i came to the bus stop, but i chose to go back by City Cat. I love City Cat better than bus...

It seemed to me today was very long day. I should have a rest and restart from tomorrow!

Tomorrow

Tommorrow...I will have a presentation!!!
I want to escape from it.. i wanna travel to somewhere...

Today's tuto was terrible. We had a discussion about the stance of Australian government to asylum seekers.

?????

An American guy said his opinion quite fast in excitement and I totally could not understand what he was saying. Our group had to say opposit opinion to that, but I had no idea what we shold say. I made no contribution to today's tuto(as usual?) But this time was the first time I could not understand ALL of disscussion.

Argh, life is difficult.

Negotiation

Im lack of ability of negotiation.
Or my English (speaking) is getting worse.

Today I went to travel agency and accomodation service in UQ Union.
The missions were...
1. To check the price of plane ticket & get a tour guide.
2. To get the information of accomodation during holiday

Yes, I managed to get those information, but the process of communication was terrible.I didn't say any sentences. I was...like worse than 2 and half months ago(arriving time). Why am i always like this...? It is true that Im not good at explain what i want to know even in Japanese. But even child at the age of 4 can communicate better than me!
It might be because Im so easy to be nervous when i get into the place never visited before(even in shop..). I was ashamed of myself.

And information i got today made me more nervous. Because plane ticket was more expensive than i expected. what was more, it was proved that accomodation service doesn't conduct the mediation of homestay.Now im wondering...should i choose the share house? It is cheeper and possibly, i can practice my english as well as homestaying..I got nothing more than perplexity and depression today.

today was formal dinner.
It lasted till 8:30. took long time!!
I should have prepared for day after tommorow...but i didn't.
lazy

come back to daily life

Class has begun again. I managed to get up this morning and went to the class.....I was half asleep...

these days climate here is getting hotter and hotter. And, humidity is higher than i expected. People say its getting worse.....but compare to Japan, it wont be so much i guess.

My presentation day is coming,,,,,in 3 days.
can't believe this. Because I haven't prepared yet.

I'm thinking about plan of my holidays now. It sounds like escape from the reality....NOT AT ALL! believe me. Im sooooo afraid of my holiday. Will I survive during holiday here...?
Im planning to travel alone, but can I do it by myself...? Im a spoiled child(aged 21), so i cannot help feeling anxious about it.

Anyway I think I should get to assigment & preparation for presentation so far.....maybe I cannot deny writing here is a kind of escape ..