Now I feel better, turning down an interview this morning and finishing what I can't feel worth doing. Frankly speaking, I cannot make any effort to cheat myself cos that makes me mentally unstable. It's not good for my mental health at all. A friend of mine said everyone tells a lie in order to decorate and defend him/herself, and then, I shouldn't be naive and I must write C.V. like trying to get a perfect score in exam. I know she is not wrong and what she said is a way to survive in the real world, but I simply don't wanna follow her way. I never say what I truly think if it's needed not to. However, I cannot say anything that I never think of, telling all sorts of lies to someone and especially, myself. At least, I cannot cost my life for what I don't want, having my mind been into pieces.