Now days everybody wants to take, but not giving. All world acting same way. There won't be peace and United.
Sunday I go to a church. Started last year May. I used to go to a church when I was young. So many years I turn away myself from a church. Probably I did not have good experience from churches I have gone. Last year from begining I had a terrible emotional disturbance. I wanted to fresh my mind, so I knocked on the church. The church was the one I wanted. People in the church were very nice and liked as the church itself. I fresh my mind every Sunday and feel my life is more enjoyable with peace.
I've noted changing myself.
I use to like thinking myself, life, human, psychology and writing about them. Writing needs much more thinking, but I get less patience to do it. Probably acting comes first and thinking comes after acting. Ofcouse there are results come, so writing come possibly.
77歳になった。いつまで生きて居るのかと もっと身近に考えるようになった。
逝く時は，逝った後は何も要らない。
身辺の整理は常に心掛けてはいるが，真剣にしようとおもう。
買うものは，必要なもののみ。
有るものを使う。
常に減らす。
I got it last May.
After 7 month, again new flowers started blooming.
真夜中。私はカップラーメ，息子は私の手製のパテ(缶チキン， チョップセロリー， チョップオニオン， わさびマヨネーズ， マヨネーズ)をパンに塗ってお互いに食べている。日本のテレビがきれいな景色を写している。
I started going to a church mid May this year. I have not gone to Church mote than 30 years. The church I atend is very spiritual and members are just like symbols of bible. I learn, feel, see love there.
Today I have had an appointment for TV connecition. This is an american time. Setting up time between 8am to 12pm. It won't be never setting up exact time in Japan, but here is in US, so we need tolarate it. They have not colled yet, means I just have to wait them call me little ahead of arriving or just their shoing up. I have lived in US over 40 years, but still can't accept this lasy timing.
It might be difficult, but as long as giving mercy we never will be happy. As long as we hate, resemble, angry continuing, we would not be happy. Give forgiveness will bring own happiness.
January my life had been unusually bad. Unbelievably I had lost my mind. I was captured by scammers and taken into an unreal wlast orld. I was not myself. I was in a dream world. With scammers ingenious techniques I lost myself completely. I strugll with love words which I never received and made me so happy. Once we are happy, it is verSince y hard to leave. Happyholick? I realized I was fooled completely. I had gone through so difficult time. It took for 4 month to get out from the dream world.
If we want to something, we need to act to get them. Waiting without action, nothing comes to us. Our desires make us searching, assessment, planing and action. Without these work, our desire would never accomplished.
Peaceful day is today. It has been quit unusual day recently.
It is very nice to feel this way.
We should have this feeling often in our daily life. There are a lot of disturbance things come and go. Unwillingly, unabdingly,
unexpectedly when these things come. We are totally controlled by them. Our emotion is so weak. It is totally controlled. Once the emotion is controlled by disturbed thing sometimes so heavy and feeling is killed by it. It is so dangerous. Our life is also controlled.
コーヒーをのみなを飲みながら，この景色を見ながら，思いを巡らせるのが私のmeditationである。
色んな想像，思考，Idea がめぐる時間でもある。
色んな想像，思考，Idea がめぐる時間でもある。
Giving forgiveness might be hard sometimes. It is also training self. With love, it is possible and grow yourself. Love takes care of even hardest problem. Love melts even aged Garcia. When you give forgiveness you would be released from unhappiness.