The answer

in the cybernetics i heard that endless loop of the self-reference
make a consciousness. then in the computer what is the self ?
an algorithm that turn back themselves is just a bug and abend.
even when I zazen, what is the self ?
paradox is the meme of Zen itself.
and this meme never influence the human gene. this is a philosophy not a natural science nor a religion.
if I can not ask for the first time, I answer for the first time.
When I zazen I ask myself what is the self. But I can not find it, But I have to keep going self reference. That is why I exist here and now.