Laughter

Japanese laughter is sometimes hard to make, though that depends on whom you are with, i reckon.

When I was in junior high, i hadnt considered that kinds of things at all.

The surroundings where I was in the dormitory i used to live as techinical college student provided many opportunities to mull over it.

Maybe i can say that laughter, or atomosphere that people who are there build or want to build.

some of Japanese, who cannot understand what kinds of atmosphere there are in, are called KY.

anyhow, I seemed that I can understand what kinds of atmosphere there are, and people who are around me want to make.
but i cant ride on and manipulate that atmosphere.
apparently I sometimes fail to keep that atmosphere.
For that reason alone, I feel frustrated that I fail.
More brilliantly, I should act my role which I am given.
should get laughter.


now I have less time to practice piano.
I have to do that more, you know.
but i wanna read more books, watch more movies, study English harder.


By the way, I wanna get a partner, of course, I never have any woman in my heart.
I just expect that soon I will see who i have never seen.

the lack of skill

Today I am the negative.

My skill of piano is not enough at all.

I wish i could have enough time to practice the piano.
I could have had that time when I could.
but i havent even tried to have that because i was dull.
no effort, no goal, no skill, no gain.

This circumstance where i am is not good to struggle using my time for me.
How can I say...
here in this dormitory, Ive got friends who can have relaxed time together.
some chattings with them are good to think about myself, my way of thinking.
good to do new things i have never done but theyve done.

but ive got less time to practice the piano, to study English, and to pray.

now i cant help but realizing my lack of skill.
now i cant help but blaming my character.

what could i do to prevent this distruction.

Music has given me something to make me happy.
Music has healed my soul.
Music has told me what I have regreted.
Music has told me some cruel realities.

Oh, the Lord, however, you are my savior, though I havent done to believe yourself.
i have nothing to tell you, but you have kept talking to me.
I dont know you, but I know it's you.
You might have given me some gifts, but i have used that only for me.

What is my music? what is my music to do?

Im sorry but im not skillful enough for now.

nutrition

Ive got a canker sore.
im afraid this was caused by the lack of nutrition.

ive got some complaint against meals that my dormitory staff provides.
they apparently provides less vegetables.
Especially, green and yellow vegetables they are,
such as spinach, carrot, pumpkin, and so on.

bacause of this scantiness of vegetables,
i cant help reling on vegetable juice, which includes a lot of suger but much less nutrition which is less than its entire quantity.
vegetable juices which are sold in supermarkets are not so good, or
better to take only as supplement, not as main vegetables.
a friedn of mine told that.

often i buy tomatos because it doesnt need to cook, but only wash with water. no need to use any flavors, but only to bite into. how easy it is.
but a problem is that tomato doesnt include a type of nutrition to strengthen skins, which carrot includes very much.

I dont like to bite into row carrot without any flavors, though I have done that when i was in Australia ( and i learned to dislike doing that.

anyhow, after all, what I can do is to drink vegetable juices,
which is high-quality.

where I work for

The other day, it was determined where I work for.

Now I got a job to work as a sound researcher.

I may be so lucky, blessed.

Ive got scanty knowledge but I struggle.